Just my wicked and not so innocent life

Pain changes people, right? I wasn't always like this. Before all this, i actually was just a little girl who needed to be taken care of. The sad part is... the only one who looked after me, was me, myself and i. At some point i got lost. Maybe it was my own fault? I took too much weight on my shoulders? My mother was absent, now i know why. She needed to work and finish her studies, she provided for us, because my father... well, lets just say, he was more absent than my mother. Unfortunately this is the smallest piece of the puzzle i am about to assemble. It started here, but this is nothing compared to the things i had to go through later on. I was the kind of girl who had the highest grades, pretty much perfect appearance, always so fucking well put together. I seemed perfect, right? The reality was... when i came home from school, i took the sharpest knife from our kitchen, went to my room, and with that knife i hurted myself, so many times, so many cuts. It took me 3 years...

I am not your typical young woman, most people would actually call me a girl. But you know what? Girls don't do the things that i do, girls don't enjoy intimate, rough, passionate sex like i do. They will cry after a man who just used them for sex, they are so innocent and can't see the world like i do. I use people, especially man, i fuck them, they don't mean shit to me. Darling, i have seen some disturbing shit in my lifetime. I might be young, but not too young.  My childhood taught to never, ever get attached to anyone or anything. NOTHING lasts forever. Maybe thats why i only want the things that bring the most pleasure but last only a moment... Are you ready for my first secret? I have boyfriend. In the daylight i am a sweet and lovely girlfriend, but when the night comes... i want someone else. Someone more dangerous, someone who will fuck me like i want it... Since i was 14, i always had someone. Always a boyfriend in line. This might suprise you, but all m...